new year

more than ten days has passed
since i have gotten a minute
to write down the thoughts
of my mind

it has been the busiest
ten days of the whole year

everyone has runny noses
or stuffy noses or tissue wiping
red noses
and sore throats
and coughs
and a big case of the grouchies

i have been longing to curl up
in bed for a few days and sleep
and i even managed to sleep in
once or twice
but still i'm run down
and coughing

being sick and all the activities
of the holidays
brought the fog back
overwhelmed
and tired

what a horrible way to spend
the blessed Christmas season

i remind myself that it is just that
a Christmas season
my closeness to Christ isn't defined
by just a season
it evolves over all the seasons
of my life
it's just that some of the seasons
feel so long these days

someday soon
i'll wish for the chaos
but today
and the last few days
i wish for a time of rest
and quiet

why is it we always want
what we don't have?

on that note
i don't want
the extra weight
i do have
and i want to do something
about it this year
my resolution again
for the third year in a row
well, one of the years didn't count
because i was pregnant that year

so i'll try again...

the sweetest memory of new year's
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10
(arm raised high with sippee cup of juice in hand)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!