test

test today

scan of abdomen
and pelvis

drinking minty-orange
chalky stuff
worse than the worst
antacid ever

shoulda been a drinker
the way i guzzled it
at 3
this morning

but then
that wouldn't be good

kinda scared
caught myself
calling out
to who?
daddy...
of all people
could be God
as that was my name
for Him in high school
could be my dad
both in same place
(i pray)
so...
strange what fear will do

i just pray for answers...